whatever.i.desire. | Laina Rauma

whatever.i.desire.

2 min read Sunday, January 14th, 2024

Day 14. whatever.i.desire.

This is something I struggle with but I have really gotten better at it - especially after spending a decent amount of time in Europe this past year. Just a different way of life.. I love this pic of MC with her McDonald's because first of all its iconic. And second of all, while it def goes against my detox.. man, sometimes you just gotta do it! And by IT I mean whatever your heart desires. 

I believe there are little things we can do for our souls that might not technically be the "right" or *healthy* thing to do. Like eat junk food, sleep all day, not return your calls/texts/emails, spend a little past budget, have a little too much wine with a friend,.. etc. Like, whatever it is you wanna do today, (with safety in mind) I want you to do it. 

I have to literally practice this because while I might be doing the act, I don't always do it without guilt and the guilt is actually proven to be much unhealthier than just doing the fucking thing. Guilt and shame are the most low vibrational emotions they literally do nothing for us but bring us down into a shrunken smaller version of ourselves until we feel powerless and unworthy. I feel like guilt and shame are gateway emotions to some really dark shit if you let it get there. 

SO I actually believe in practicing going a little off track in my “perfect”(/ly strict) set schedule/diet/life from time to time because it keeps me free. So, just do it. And do it out of complete love for yourself because it feels GOOD to just let go and treat yourself. With zero guilt. I finished part 1 of my detox today - 2 days early. I’m still not drinking or eating the things I mentioned in my Jan 3 post but I’m done with the supplements. I just felt like my body was done. So I had 2 organic taquitos (not part of my detox hahaha) & a big bowl of guacamole (def part of my detox I make it almost every day) and napped for 2 hours and then continued on business as usual. 

You guys might be like girl I do this all the time I have such a healthy relationship with treating myself with zero guilt because I am a QUEEN and I deserve whatever my heart desires. And I applaud you!!!! Seriously. I’m better at it than I ever have been before but I’m still working on it. ;-) 

Love you. 

See you tomorrow. 

xx L